pediatrics

it boggles my mind that i ever considered it for a profession.  so much so that it actually irritates me when i have family/friends still ask – you want to do peds, right?  shit, no.

for the first time in my life, i wasn’t utterly miserable on outpt (besides OB).  but let me tell you how much that was overshadowed by the fact that inpt peds is utterly atrocious.  not that it has much to do with the kids, but more the residents.  they’re miserable, and they constantly show it.  they’re rude and generally just ignore us.  it’s such a waste.  i don’t even know what i did for the past week except be constantly exposed to the bliss of being ignored. 

i wouldn’t have a problem with this except these people will be evaluating me.  as if they have any idea how i interact with patients, or have ever sat down and talked with me to guage my ability to learn or even to see how much i already know. (run-on sentence of the year.)

most of inpt peds is silly.  it seems like kids are just admitted to the hospital to placate the parents.  most of these kids are a little sick.  oh, you have diarrhea? let’s admit you.  i was never in the hospital in my entire youth, except for when chewkie managed to get hit by a car, but that sure as hell wasn’t for me.

between peds and ob, it really makes me not want to have kids.  esp the peds part – bc i swear, if i ever become that neurotic – shoot me.

 

i can’t even stand writing about this stuff it’s so overwhelming.  maybe when i get bored over the next 1.5 weeks i’ll do shorter blurbs about how much it sucks at the children’s hospital.

financial aid

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck, i hate it!  i hate every aspect of it and i can’t flippin’ wait until i no longer have to do this shit and all i have to do is pay back my craptacular amount of loans.  Aa;sklfj [p39o48 ;oidsjm.

and the good lord said, let there be ajay

that’s pronounced “ah-jay”.  pretty much my new best friend. 

i will just try to summarize all of the horribleness that commenced upon my leaving florida after the fourth of july weekend.  it was like god being angry that i had the gall to finally have some spontaneity and fun.  almost immediately after florida, i became sick.  it was pretty nonspecific, clearly something viral:  sore throat that added a stuffy nose, runny nose, and lastly, a cough.  but i was all like, you know what, i just spent two weeks on outpt peds, it’s not because god hates me.  it’s because little monsters called children hate me.  how dare they share their diseased respiratory droplets. 

on tuesday, i felt so disgusting and sick, i left my shift in the peds e.d. early.  i left early only to go home, check my shelf score and realize i missed honoring by 1 point.  1…fucking…point.  that equates to 1…fucking…question.  i’m still very bitter.  very bitter.  the bitterness was not helped because after being sorely depressed due to sickness and now the most rotten shelf score ever (as in, it would have been easier to just miss it by a lot), i just went to bed only to wake up and find my internet not working.  after hours, then days of trying to get it to work, i find out my ethernet card is probably fried.

great – so:  the list at this point:

1. sick

2. shelf

3. internet

moving on –  our family dog finally goes off the deep end and develops explosive diarrhea in the house at 14 years old and we determine it’s time to put her down.  dr. f tried to prep me on how much it sucks, but no matter how bad you expect it to be to watch that, it’s worse.

lastly, after making a trek all the way down to cbus, i manage to drain my car battery for the millionth time.

5 wonderful things, and i know i’m forgetting some.  needless to say, i’ve been rather bummed lately. 

however, it all turned around when i told ajay the crap going on with my computer – so you know what he does…takes me to a place to get a cheap ethernet card (i didn’t want to wait to order one by mail that was cheaper), puts it in my computer, fixes it after it still didn’t work, PLUS fixed my 5 year old problem of not having a functioning cd burner which all told cost me 25 dollars.

so like i said, next to jesus, there is ajay, or as i call him, the…um…brown devil.